November 21, 2015 § Leave a comment
I have a rather disturbing way of exploring my love for the man I spend my life looking at.
I write poems about him being dead. I truly subscribe to the idea that you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone – so I make my mind believe he is.
Maybe it’s to prepare myself for him one day not being there. When that happens, most of me will be gone too. I often have to remind myself we’re not the same person and he has separate thoughts and feelings.
He went out for three hours today, so I wrote about him dying again.